Well Catherine,

This has certainly been an interesting year. First, you refused to vacate your gratuitous legal attack of 2006, then falsely accused me of felony burglary. When the police suggested an expensive mediation to address your fear, you agreed, then failed to appear. When this required much more expensive court action on my part, you contested. But again you failed to show such that, with your appeal, your actions shall have cost me nearly $20,000. Whatever the courts may finally decide, you owe me a significant moral debt

My assumption for quite a while has been that Catherine Lynne Carter is not mentally well, obsessing on me for reasons that were unclear but presumably related to her own guilt, shame, or desire for attention. In light of seeming inconsistencies in her 1999 testimony and the PDNS name record, what other sort of false statements might have been made by Cate before the court?

Did she call the police all the time or was I special? To my great astonishment, neither of those alleged interactions were in the basic record. Had she lied about the calls or had PPB just not recorded them? It was an odd development, to be sure.

In summary, respondent is entitled to an award of reasonable and necessary attorney fees in the sum of $10,790.00, litigation expenses in the sum of $1158.93, and a prevailing party fee in the sum of $85.00, for a total of $12,033.93.

On the motion of the Respondent to vacate the Final Stalking Protective Order and Judgment signed by Judge Steven A Todd on April 21, 2006 is vacated.

Based on the entire record in this action, the court cannot find that petitioner continues to suffer reasonable apprehension…

During the decade-long saga of Cate Carter’s fearful fixation on me, I made three CD “playlists” of songs that brought me comfort as I remembered, meditated and prepared for the unpleasant hearings and legal stupidity she had chosen.

I am in receipt of your letter dated July 22 regarding Carter v. Bowman. In that letter, you state that “[p]etitioner may offer witness testimony via telephonic testimony at the hearing.” Please take notice that, at the hearing in this matter on August 21, I will object to the presentation of telephonic testimony

26: Petitioner has never seen respondent injure another person.
ADMIT

27: Petitioner has never seen respondent brandish a weapon or carry a weapon in a hostile manner.
ADMIT

Following their breakup, the parties saw each other socially, but this gradually stopped. A lawyer friend of petitioner’s, Marti Dell, met respondent for coffee and told him to stay away from petitioner, without disclosing that she was speaking in a representative capacity. Tr. 11-12. Respondent, to whom petitioner had given a key to her truck, used the truck to return petitioner’s remaining possessions to her. Tr. 11-12, 29. After that, contact died out. Tr 28.

Judge Lamar,

I don’t know if you’ve ever read a book titled Gideon’s Trumpet, but a pencil figures significantly in it, and so I thought I would take a moment to write you in pencil.

Mr. Bowman and I have had further discussions, however, and before returning to court we would like to propose an alternate solution that would be less expensive and less stressful for all parties. We would like to arrange a meeting where Ms. Carter, you, Mr. Bowman and I can gather with a professional mediator to reach a settlement that will give Ms. Carter the assurances of security she needs while freeing Mr. Bowman from the unnecessary and unjustified stigma of a formal stalking order.

I began my day with an interesting phone call from a Portland police detective. Apparently Catherine Lynne Carter has accused me of felony burglary, and the good detective would like me to consent to a DNA swab and a polygraph. I pause to savor the richness of my situation.

I want my reputation back. I want safety from her blackmail. I want her to stop aggrandizing herself, using the court system against me, and crying wolf in a way that hurts women who face real violence.

Ms. CARTER said that BOWMAN is a computer (Mac) technician and very proficient with computers and technology and may have done something to the DSL router in her apartment

My assumptions about Kevin Balmer were fairly simple. First, I assumed he was young and naive, to post pictures of himself with a gun on the Internet like some Eric Harris or Dylan Klebold wannabe. Secondly, I assumed his change of avatar was somehow trying to send me a message

While Ms. Carter is reviewing her options, I would ask you, as her counsel, to pass on one additional word of advice. The fact that she currently has a stalking order against Mr. Bowman does not give Ms. Carter the right to defame him.

Having done some actual stalking (the kind that involves a license and ends with a bullet and venison) I have never seen a prey animal sense danger and then announce itself. Some may bolt if approached, but first they freeze. What Carter was doing simply didn’t make sense.

Karpman’s drama triangle is a melodramatic soap opera with an ensemble cast and three basic roles: victim, hero, and villain.

A poet of modest talents on the global stage himself, her husband (Ted Hughes) was widely considered a murderer by some feminists, a complicit co-conspirator in Plath’s angelic death. Silent for decades on the matter, Hughes famously published a collection of poems just months before his own death in 1998. Titled Birthday Letters, this collection happened to highlight a personal custom of mine that began when I was fifteen.

I told her that I would keep my eyes open for other small things of hers, and she specifically asked me to save a small rice bowl of hers into which she had transplanted for me the gift of a small jade plant.

Cate Carter moved out of my place in February of 1998, inviting me to stay over at hers as late as April, jealously interrupted me and another woman in May and then visited my house for the last time in June, saying she would try to be in touch by my birthday in October.

Having not heard from her as expected, I sent an email to announce that I would call her on Tuesday, October 13, whereupon a creepy older woman by the name of Martitia Dell decided to step in on Cate’s behalf.

Starting with an email VI received on 01/14/08 from student (W2) at Reed College that had been directed by XI to contact her (see attached email for details).

We live and die for a sense of narrative completion and fairy-stories of love are beautiful. Love and literature give us pretty stories, and as a winter sparrow may fly the length of a great feasting hall from one door to another and out again, so are we in our path through the light. From darkness to darkness we have our stories, and it is pretty to think the stories matter.

If I do not hear from you by April 21, 2008, I shall begin my legal counter-attack and defense of my narrative as a point of honor. I take no pleasure in humiliating cripples and fools, but feel a certain pain at unanswered calumny.

Twice she has sought a restraining order against me and while the first was denied in 1999, a second judge in 2006 granted one and told me it could later be rescinded. When I went down to the courthouse about this, though, I find this is not the case.

It is ironic that I would have left here years ago were it not for the selfish rantings of a silly, drama girl, yet here I am.

I have severed all ties with Reed College to protect my privacy.

Carter has had the time and space she clearly needed, and I have paid the price in personal embarrassment and other ways for her conceited concept of herself as femme fatale and portrait of me as bogeyman.

[I] turned around clockwise to look almost directly at CLC, who presumably also saw me.

“Midway through life’s journey, I found myself in a dark wood.” – Dante

You can share what you wish of this with your client, but my plan for the next year or so is as follows:

It is therefore ordered that Respondent is required to stop any contact with the person protected by this order, and any attempt to make contact with the person protected by this order.

Q. What did you mean when you said, “I believe that drug use (even anti-depressants) in some sense freezes emotional and other development?”

A. Are you asking me about my own drug use?

Q. Yes I am.

A. No, I was not using drugs.

Q. What were you referring to?

A. I was making a reference to Ms. Carter, that she may or may not have paid attention to, and which I would rather not discuss in open court.

You must appear for a hearing in Room JC2, Multnomah County Justice Center, 1120 SW 3rd Avenue, Portland, Oregon at 1:15 PM on April 21, 2006. If you fail to appear at this hearing, the court may issue a warrant for your arrest and may enter a permanent Stalking Protective Order.

The court considered the allegations made.

Mr. Bowman has an extensive background in martial arts and a violent temper. He appears to be in an unstable mental state. I am very concerned that he is targeting my boyfriend to gain information & access to me.

I have no idea what she has told you about me, so I am presenting myself in the interests of communication.

Are these the lives that best honor the dead? I do not think so, and we all deserve better.

“By western definition yes. In other contextes she could b seen as a wild untrained shaman. Having no cultural context id say the former. Why?” SMS message from SMN sent 9:22:48am 20 Feb 2006.

It is time to stop being afraid.

“Invisigoth” is a character from an X-Files episode called “Kill Switch,” which originally broadcast on February 15, 1998.  The eleventh episode of the fifth season, it was written by Tom Maddox and science fiction author William Gibson. Watching it also happened to be the last regular “family” activity Carter and Bowman took part in before [...]

Happy birthday, Catherine Lynne, wherever you may be.

I feel like my things of great value that belong to me and were taken without my permission. And it disturbs me. The most basic personal property is my body and beyond that the things that belong to a person are theirs. If you can violate my personal property to the point of taking my car, I don’t know where things could escalate to, but I feel they are escalating.

I take it that your below email means you have nothing to say to me. Such is life; negative results are results. Thanks for at least acknowledging receipt.

In combination with Microsoft’s Pencil Wizard we think you can quickly and sincerely communicate your deepest feelings to those you once loved (or perhaps loved under emulation).

Met with Marti last night about Kate and she was pompous, heavy-handed and unskilled, getting angry with me and grossly miscalculating where I was and what I was about.

I don’t know what your state of mind is or what you have told Marti, but in the interest of transparency, following are the messages she and I exchanged recently. She has graciously agreed to meet with me for coffee this Sunday.

I’m shedding stuff again, and I was wondering if you would want my rice cooker.